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well, going out for sushi with everyone was very fun. i love sushi, and i love my friends. i thought it was really nice of my dad to pay for it, even though i wanted him to take the money for it out of account so he wouldnt have to, i like when he does nice things like that
after that, it went downhill like a plane crash. but it was the kind of plane crash where everyone gets saved but me, and i'm the one who's flesh and bones are burning.
drama, drama. i fucking wish some people would at least humor me and not create drama at my birthday party. yeah, you dont like one person well tough. is it so hard to just fucking get along for one night so i can enjoy myself for once?
guh.
and then, as usual i get left out of the group and everything revolves around eric and kaitlin. oh well, i asked for it.
i hate it when they say "you're special because god made you in his image."
so,
is god an ugly obnoxious bitch? apparently.
i would love to see someone try and save me.
now, kaitlin and veronica are over spending the night, and they are both asleep. i like them alot, and i think they are both very cool.
it just kills me when veronica constantly tells kaitlin over and over again how pretty she is
it makes me feel like an ugly waste of space. it makes me feel so fucking ugly
everytime she says how beautiful kaitlin is, it makes me want to FUCKING DIE
no one has ever told me i'm pretty out of their own free fucking will
oh, and bryan knocked the liscence plate off of my car, which just makes the evening even more great.
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EEE!!!!
CATHERINE IS MY HERO TIMES A MILLION FOR GETTING MY PRECIOUS GAME BOY BACK!!!
thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou!
and in additon, katie got a job! wooo!
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[08 Jul 2004|07:46pm] |
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my Gameboy advance sp was stolen from Bens house
it is silver, and i got it for christmas.
it is the only thing i got for christmas, and i dont have enough money to get a new one,
so, if you did steal it, PLEASE give it back! :(
If You dont give it back, and i find out who you are, i will train an army of birds to peck your dick off, and if you are a girl, i will fill your vagina with cement so you can never have sex again! And i will use a rusty spoon to scrape all of your skin off and then make you eat it (uncooked). I will eat your intestines like spagetti, then pluck the hairs off of your legs one by one! After that, i will use a nail gun and nail your ass to your face, then i will pull your eyes out with my bare hands and eat them like grapes! Then, while you are screaming in agony, i will shit down your throat, then sew your mouth shut so you will be forced to eat my shit! I will also kill your animals one by one, then eat their flesh and bones. AND ILL DO THE SAME THING TO YOUR PARENTS!
And then, i will pump your heart full of gasoline and make your friends watch you die! And when you die, i will piss on your grave!
oh, and while your at it, give Ben Sonic Battle back, or he will cut out your testicles.
so, in conclusion, give us our shit back
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[06 Jul 2004|10:18pm] |
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Full name: melanie ames rogers
Nicknames: smellanie, elliot
Sex: female
Age: 15, gunna be sixteen in less than a month
Birthday: 8588
Birth place: Houston
Current residence: Houston
Zodiac Sign: leo
Parents names: lucy and bob
Sibling's names and ages: katherine, 19. robert, 9
Pets: tigger (cat)
Love Life
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: fuck no :(
If so, who are they?: your mom
How long have you been dating?: since i got her pregnated
Do you have a crush?: yeah
Would you rather be single or taken right now?: Taken..
How many people have you dated this past year?: 1
How many people have you kissed in your life?: hell if i know
How many people have you said "I love you too" and meant it?: only one
If you didn't mean it, why did you say it?: ive only said i love you to one person, and i really did mean it
Have you ever had a hard time getting over someone?: yeah :(
Are you friends with your ex/exes?: yeah, kinda
Have you ever cheated on someone?: no
Have you ever been cheated on?: yes
What's the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for you?: hmm, i dont know. i guess when james came to my gay orchestra concert..that meant alot to me
What do you look for in your ideal mate?: someone who doesnt treat me like shit, or have any stds
Biggest Turn-ons: gross teeth, tall guys, i like a guy who could kick my ass if they wanted to (not that its a big thing because im really weak)
Turn-offs: assholes, concieted men, short boys, straight teeth
Friends
Nicest:none of them :p
Bitchiest: lindsay
Prettiest: Kaitlin
Hottest?: Kaitlin, duh.
Best eyes: ben
Best hair: zach, haha
Biggest Flirt: Bryan
Tallest: zach
Shortest: i dont associate with short people.
Most likely to become a serial killer?: heh. probably me..or zach
Most caring?: matt, sometimes :)
Most trustworthy?: matt, or zach
Most likely to go out with you?: no one. because no one likes me
Best body?: kaitlin
Most like you?: zach :( because we're both really crazy
Most fun to be with?: All of them
Ever Been Called...
Dumb?: yes
Retarded?: yes
Ugly?: yes, but it was by myself
Hot?: yeah
Fat?: haha no
Anorexic?: oh yes..i used to get all kinds of shit for my weight
A waste of space?: no
Useless?: yes
Sexy?: yeah, but its not true...at all
Smelly?: haha no. i wish
A Slut?: yes.
Beautiful?: yes. and yet again, i dont understand why
Smart?: yes
Quiet?: yes
Boring?: ohh yes
A Bitch?: haha, yeah/.
Rebel?: not really
Conceited?: no
Currently
What are you wearing?: hospital shirt and grey shorts
Who are you talking to?: no one
How is the weather?: calm
What are you listening to?: crickets
What/Who are you thinking about?: about how everyone i know and love is going to die and leave me all alone
What are you eating/drinking?: nothing
What are you looking forward to: my birthday
What are you dreading?: my headache coming back
How are you feeling?: cynical
How is your hair?: wet
What time is it?: 10:33
Emotions
What emotion do you feel the most?: horrible depression, all the time.
What emotion is the best?: being loved
Worst?: rejection
What songs make you cry?: pictures of you- the cure
What always cheers you up?: whip it-Devo
What make you madder than anything?: being rejected constantly by the same people
What hurts you the most?: loving someone more than anything, and them not even care that you're alive
Which person always makes you happy?: katie, matt, and ben
Depressed?: certain people that i wont list..:(
Are you a really emotional person?: oh, yes. and its my biggest downfall
What do you do when you're depressed?: draw sad pictures in my sketch book
What song do you think was written about your life?: Creep-Radiohead
When Was The Last Time You..
Kissed?: hmm. i guess james a couple of weeks ago
Had sex?: hahaha
Cried?: like a week ago
Got dumped?: around january
Dumped someone?: like 2 years ago
Three Things
3 things you enjoy doing
1. drawing
2. being with my friends
3. eating
3 people you love
1. ....
2. my friends
3. my family.
3 things you hate
1. myself
2. my house
3. eww, and i hate mayonaisse
3 things you regret
1. cant say
2. cant say
3. cant say.
3 things you are looking forward to
1. getting my liscense
2. eating breakfast
3. playing zelda
3 things you dislike about yourself
1. My face
2. My body
3. my heigth
3 things that describe your looks
1. ugly
2. ugly
3. ugly
Issues
"Do you do drugs?: of corse not, im a good girl! haha. jk.
Do you have a mental disability?: i dont think so
Are you on any medication for any type of disorder?: yes.
What kind?: serizone, for severe depression
Do you or have you ever had an eating disorder?: kind of. in like eigth grade, i thought i was fat so i only ate when it was nescesary..which was like every two days. but that doesnt count
What kinds of illnesses run in your family?: schitzophrenia, heart disease, cancer, being crazy..
Who was the last person you...
Talked to?: my mom
Yelled at?: eric
Kissed?: james
Hugged?: my dad
Flirted with?: ehe heh
Talked to on the phone?: katie
IMed?: johnathan
Made love to?: lol
Fought with?: tthe world!!! haha.
Worried about?: becoming fat
Wanted to kill?: myself, random strangers..
Cried over?: not going to say
Thought about?: certain people..
Are you...
Understanding?: no, not really
Pretty?: No.
Nice?: oh god no
A bitch?: yes
Hard to get?: no, not really
Confident?: no.
Depressed?: yes, very.
Hyper?: not really
Popular?: blehh
Friendly?:sometimes
Sexy?: nope.
Hungry?: no, i just ate
Original?: i suppose
Shy?: Very
Emotional?: yes
Messy?: ohh yes
Arrogant?: rarely
Immature?: yes, very
Sad?: yeah, quite often
Trusting?: Yes
Healthy?: no
Sleepy?: not really
Lonely?: yeah :(
Independent?: no, im very clingy
Romantic?: maybe
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[06 Jul 2004|03:20pm] |
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well, this weekend was pretty lukewarm.
some of it was good, some of it sucked.
i want to do something tonight, where is everyone?
haha.
"YOU PUT THE WORD DICK IN MY MOUTH!"
silly katie..
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[02 Jul 2004|11:28pm] |
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You make me feel like dirt.
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i wish summer would hurry up and be over..
august 5th is too far away.
ahghghg.
the shithead next door wont turn off his car alarm and its been going off for the past two hours. nonstop.
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[29 Jun 2004|09:25am] |
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Love will never be enough.
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Whenever she's around, i'm invisible.
do you know what it feels like to be invisible?
don't you know what it's like to never be the special one?
and why cant i be a pretty girl that's nice, and fun, and everyone cant get enough of?
maybe i'm just crazy.
but it makes me feel so fucking ugly sometimes.
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guh. it's been awile.
I dont feel like updating (like always)
so i hung out with veronica, it was fun. she has 6 bottles of conditioner and only a half bottle of shampoo.
and i bought a green pinstripe jacket (it kinda looks manly :( )
hey, you. you should call me 2817330268
well, i'm going to go knit.
<X3
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i just realized that (by reading carolines journal) that 9 people died yesterday of an overdose at my school without me even knowing.
so while i was in class, 9 people dropped dead. wtf?
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[21 Jun 2004|09:26pm] |
man, Xiu Xiu is the most dperessing movie EVER.
no wonder why jamie stewart made that the name of his band.
seriously, almost every scene made you want to crawl in a hole and die.
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[20 Jun 2004|09:55am] |
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And if I could be who you wanted
If I could be who you wanted
all the time.
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[19 Jun 2004|05:40pm] |
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so this weekend was eventful.
i went to christay's house (which was effing huge)
met some interesting people
did some interesting things.
played atari
then we woke up and watched this awesome movie about women that order pizzas with extra anchovies and the gy comes over and has sex with them for 200$.
then we went to the heights and to montrose
then to taco bell
now i'm home.
i'm sleepy. and i have to babysit.
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Ever fallen in love
In love with someone
You shouldn't've fallen in love with
i started listening to the Buzzcocks again, and they are awesome. goddamn. i wanted to listen to Crass, but i cant find my Crass cd. eh, i'll just get lindsay to burn me another (eh? lindsay?)
today was a really good day. i didnt think it would be, but it was. (despite suffocating at school. btw, thank you natalie for taking me to the nurse lol)
You made me really happy today.
I never thought i'd get to see you again, but i'm glad i did.
i'm glad i did.
We must do it again really soon :)
<3
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[16 Jun 2004|09:55pm] |
so me and katie was at randalls, and we pulled up to these people like having sex in their car in the parking lot.
they were old and fat and ugly.
he was like all up on her, and she was making an O face in extacy
gross?
very.
as soon as we pulled up, they got embarresed and pulled away
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[16 Jun 2004|06:31pm] |
ben and zach are really lazy.
and tommoroww is thursday <3
bahhh, im bored.
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[15 Jun 2004|08:48pm] |
Enter value or values in comment then copy & paste into your own lj...
add a reason if you want.
0= I don't know you
1= I like you
2= I love you!!
3= You are funny
4= You are cool
5= I don't really care for your personality
6= I want to fuck you
7= You are sexy!
8= You have a nice body
9= I want to get to know you
10= I hope you die
11= Marry me, PLEASE?
12= wanna have sex later?
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[14 Jun 2004|10:09pm] |
ok. i met the most annoying douche bag today.
seriously. this kid takes the fucking cake for being a douche.
he kept saying stuff like:
"oh man, i smoked weed today for the first time. it was dro. it was some good shit."
"oh my god, they're smoking pot. i can smell it, and i know what that smells like"
and
"hahaha, we're white, and we're listening to rap music! good thing we're not in a ghetto neighborhood!"
guhh.
in further news, my dad called me ugly and pimply today
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[14 Jun 2004|02:42pm] |
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udifjdipjfhnawueih
bored.
*dies*
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[12 Jun 2004|04:40pm] |
i wish i could say what i feel.
i wish things would will work out.
in case you didnt know, i miss you too.
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[10 Jun 2004|10:39pm] |
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Been thinking about you, your records are here,
your eyes are on my wall, your teeth are over there.
But I'm still no-one, and you're now a star,
what do you care?
Been thinking about you, and there's no rest,
shit I still love you, still see you in bed.
But I'm playing with myself, and what do you care
when the other men are far, far better.
All the things you've got,
all the things you need,
who bought you cigarettes,
Who bribed the company to come and see you honey?
I've been thinking about you, so how can you sleep?
These people aren't your friends, they're paid to kiss your feet.
They don't know what I know and why should you care
when I'm not there.
Been thinking about you, and there's no rest,
should I still love you, still see you in bed.
But I'm playing with myself, what do you care,
when I'm not there.
All the things you've got,
she'll never need,
all the things you've got.
I've bled and I bleed to please you.
Been thinking about you.
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[09 Jun 2004|03:35pm] |
ps.
somebody should come over and dance to Devo with me
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